26. Something you’re afraid of

I'm deathly afraid of losing Josh. I can easily work myself into a panic attack just thinking about it. You've heard the Winnie the Pooh saying, "If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you." I take that to fully and completely to heart.

I'm always telling Josh that if he dies, I'm going to tell them to dig two holes, because I'm going to be buried with him. I really don't think I could live without him, and honestly, I don't want to even try.

He just laughs when I get like this, he doesn't seem to take me seriously. But I am dead serious, and I do mean that literally.